Monday, September 15, 2008

A Somber Reminder

I have a very dear friend who asked me to send her a picture of Chance. Chance is the new puppy. He came into my life at a time when I was on the fence about letting another furball hang around. I lost Charlie tragically in February, and I still am not over it. People probably thought I shouldn't have gotten a puppy when I did, but I am home, and have time to train a dog to enjoy the house without destroying it. I know I can never replace Charlie, and I'd trade almost anything to have him back...but that sadly, will never happen. There's not a day that doesn't go by that I don't quietly say his name and have tears well up in my eyes. Some days, it's so hard, I break down and really boo-hoo. I've always had a special place for animals in my heart. They make better friends and companions than people do. But, Charlie, he was special. He was my only friend for a very long time, my only family member in a strange place...he was so much more, but it hurts to write it, so I will save my tears for another day.

Today, I downloaded my pictures, sat down and sent that email. Chance, welcome to the family. You've been in it for awhile, but I think it's time I allow you to be noticed as a part of it. Some would say you have big shoes to fill. I thought about saying that. But you don't. You'd never be able to fill those shoes...or paws. Instead, you have your own big paws, and just as Charlie had a purpose in my life. He taught me some of the most valuable lessons I've ever learned. You have a purpose, too. Together, we'll find it. So, all of my bloggers, meet Chance. It's a fate chance that I met him. And I would like to think he's offering me a chance to watch over another doggie.


Dr. Wifey said...

aaaww, he is adorable -- can't wait to meet him! you know, i lost my Maggie last december, and it hurts as bad 10 months later as it did that night. i think our connection with animals is part of the connection between us

Brando said...

i think you're right. and the fact that we commonly know everyone not from ms is a boob.

SissyFrog said...

Brando, he's so know I have had trouble with the loss of my sweet Suey as well...and one day, I'll be brave again to get another, but I know exactly how you feel. I love you and miss you even more!!

Anonymous said...

Hey Brando,
I think he is adorable! As for knowing and sharing your pain, I do. You know I lost Tiny~Pup almost 3 years ago, and she still rides shotgun in the pickup. {One of these days, I am going to get stopped and the cops are going to search my truck, and think I have lost my mind or that I am trying to transport illegal substances, when they open her cask of ashes in the side door.}
I am still learning to let anyone (2 or 4 legged) into my heart. So I can understand. Here is to new joy, new friends, and more love in your life than you can stand. MommaEarth